G.E Wallpaper Grafitti

Started my new job yesterday. It was okay I guess. Didn’t have any friends. No one that I feel like wanting to connect to. However, we still need to socialize and be friends. To make it easy on our work. Just think about the money & wanting to learn. Bloody hell, what am I saying. I just hate being without friends at work. What a bummer. Have to start being friendly and honest…Yea, that’s a start.

As I have quitted my job I had to move out from Forum. Home here in Gombak, how I hate it. The room is pretty messed up. I mean how could anyone live here. Everything is messed up real good. Practically everywhere is in a mess. Everywhere including around the PC I’m writing over here. Felt really like going somewhere else and have a room to myself or a house to myself. I could make the place liveable. Last night I just slept in the living room. Unbearable bedroom my brother has put up with. It makes you think this disorderliness makes your life kind of disorder and you yourself are putting an image of disorganisation. The smell is bad as well. You yourself are actually disorganised! And lazy to simply put into words…

I missed my room in Forum. A bit more tidy than here. And if I mess things up a bit that is only to mark my territory (hehehe). Not as much as my brother’s room. Total mess. I hate living here. I only lived here for one and a half months before moving to Johor and then to Forum. A stranger in my own home. Overall the Forum house is far more tidy than Gombak, considering my family is moving out of Gombak, probably things are a bit disorderly and unclean around the house at the moment.

That freedom I remembered in my mind when I travelled to my newfound acquaintance’s home in Prahran (City of Stonnington), Melbourne, I had this vision in my head of what my life is going to be in Malaysia. My own home, with this big television in the living room, and probably a DVD player as well (some dream!), clean and tidy living room with carpets and sofas to hang out on, paintings hanging on the wall for visitors to ponder upon, a small aquarium with some gold fish inside, a rack full of books in my bedroom with some of them I just hadn’t had the time to read (too busy with work - the books are just to impress unsuspecting visitors. Haha..), also a laptop with 24 hours internet connection. That’s just it. I got what I had hoped for in the past one year, to be in my own home. To live by myself. To do whatever I wanted to. In order for this dream to live on, I have just have got to get out of here…. I just HATE this place! Well, am I a loner???

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