G.E Wallpaper Grafitti

The earthquake off Taiwan certainly makes it a bit harder to work. I have realised how much a business depends on the internet, emails, and CItrix, in order to function more efficiently. Without these, suddenly my company becomes totally handicapped and it makes life harder for us. I just couldn’t send/receive emails, I couldn’t work on citrix, I couldn’t function properly. I think that is enough of keluh kesah. A lot more people are suffering in this world…

Flower of Love
Bukit Jelutong, 31st Dec 06, 3.00 am

Starry night sky as our roof, On top of a hill,
Under an umbrella, wasn’t protecting self from the rain but from sorrowful pain,
It all ended without me knowing what’s happening,
Shunted out, shoved aside,
Blurred, seeking for a meaning of everything,

Still have that flicker of light under the chest,
Exhaustive of effort, needed to rest,
See it in my mind everyday,
Hoping for a glimpse of that silhouette
Of the lost flower.

Why such burden resides under my heart,
Heavy waves came to blot that light.

Departed for the garden,
Made my presence known,
Hearing the sounds of truth – how truth hurts,
Going home dejected, officially wearing a “rejectist” tag
How long I felt the journey home was.

The vague Van Gogh’s paintings of the past,
Rewinding, staring at them for answers,
The answers lie in these clues: stagnated smell, constant pathways, and monotonous mind numbing events,
Tried everything I could to revive those colours, to bring back cheers,
Still, insipid moments prevailed
Vain, vain, vain.

Why such burden resides under my heart,
Heavy waves came to blot that light

How conceited I was,
“Proud” was polluting this blood,
Arrogance is the face that I wore, such a swagger!
Realised of true self, I am ashamed,
Hating oneself, rather self destruct.
Why the action of pleasing others does exist?
Of wanting others to like that soiled self, and I can’t be blaming you as I hated my old self as well,

In my current situation and time has moved years later on:

To hell with those souls! Reminding self to seek the pleasure of God instead,
All the worlds are against you, but to be at God’s side…..
Purifying oneself, learning of sincerity,
I am at peace.