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Life is like a wheel of ups and downs. Sometimes things go really smooth, all are fantastic, all rosy. Sometimes things just get ugly, you’re unhappy inside, suffering and just have no powers to change things. I don’t know, it has to do a bit with what you feel inside, your mood? Is it a determinant factor of the your location on the wheel, whether upside or downside? The surrounding is not a determinant, and how you approach things determined whether you’re up or down. That doesn’t sound right. The surrounding is an important factor no matter how much you motivates yourself to keep that happiness sticking with you.

You motivate yourself when the going gets tough, the tough gets going? Or if it is related to your loved ones, like argument, misunderstanding, or plain lies, what do you do? Can’t get the tough man out of you. Pained. Sick.

I don’t claimed to have all the answers to life fundamental philosophy questions. I’m sure that Akademi Fantasia is not the solution - I’m hearing the theme song from the tv right now. I’ve had bad days that i thought that "Bad Luck" just stuck onto me. You know little things which pisses you off like missing the turn which you absolutely have to make as the U-Turn is like kilometres away, or your house keys are lost and you can’t get inside, or such craving for a cigarette but you can’t find a lighter anywhere, or your laptop fell onto the road because the bag’s tie broke suddenly, you lost RM 400 because some asshole crept into your car and stole it, and on top of it every single shit you can imagine happen in a single day. It happened to me, most of the things described above in a single day plus some additional shitty things. My money got stolen but luckily not on the same day. Or else, maybe I’d have a nervous breakdown because I’d think the divine power above hates me.

Had a fight with my fiancee. You know, the thoughts come back to haunt you, is my decision the correct one? Financial problems, and I hate to take loans as it enslaves you.

How do we approach such downside of life? After such bad lucks one after another in one single day, you just have to think of people in Africa and famine, people who had been diagnosed with cancer or leaukemia, people who lost their sight, or legs and arms due to accident and after that you’d think to yourself…this is such trivial matters to be concerned about. I was so frustrated and feeling dejected. When I got home (luckily someone inside the house heard me or else have to sleep outside due to lost of keys), I changed my clothes and relaxed on the bed. I read The_Quran. Leaving everything to Allah because I am powerless, I am His servant who can’t handle all these trivial matters. I just go to sleep. Morning time still the burden is there but I never thought seriously about it.

Cheers guys. I hope you have an upside wheel of life to enjoy now because you’d be really messed when your time is up to be on the downside of Life’s Wheel.

Sitting in this cramped seat inside an Air China airplane is really uncomfortable. All these chinese around me. Well, to think of it, it’s not actually weird having chinese surrounding you. I comes from Malaysia anyway. It’s good to have a close contact with the homeland of Malaysian chinese, which is China. To tell you the truth. I find China mystifying. This land holds 1.5 billion human being of various ethnicities that it is unfair to generalise people of China. Some of the ladies here are beautiful indeed.

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I’m on my way to Chengdu, to meet the clients. Went to Guangzhou first (transit) before proceeding my way in an Air China fleet. I had waited in Guangzhou airport for four hours. As usual, journeys aren’t completes with little things that happen which coloured my travel. In one of the forms given by Chinese customs, there is one particular that addressed on your health. I guess to combat the spreading of bird flu virus or something related, they’ll have you declare your current health condition. I had ticked "cough" box. I don’t know why I ticked that. Maybe I was intimidated by the legal wordings on the form, warning visitors of prosecution or whether I’m just damn too "skema". I had a bit of coughing since last week. Flu as well. That day, it only reduces to coughing. I can’t hold these coughs, and afraid I might throw out one in front of the custom officers. I was taken to a small room. All eyes of various human race (Japanese, chinese and caucasians) were casted on me. I was there as a celebrity. The small room is in fact some sort of quarantine room. I had my temperature checked, my throat checked, and being interrogated of my current health problem in detailed. I was afraid that they might keep me in that room until my flight home which is 2 days later. Luckily, the officer let me off after taking contact details.

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I had my first chinese tea at the airport coffee shop. Really great. This land had seen civilisations thousands of years ago. One of the first human civilisation to surfaced on earth.

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My worries started the next day. To give presentations to customer. At first I did not feel any pressure. They don’t understand English. I had the China Office manager as a translator. Every words that came out of my mouth was translated in Mandarin. The connection to the client now has a barrier. That barrier is Wilson, the manager in our company’s Beijing office. The client, they are like any other customers in Malaysia. Demanding. Always pointing to mistakes. Hentam gila-gila. Although I do not understand a single words they’re saying, their facial expression, the sound and intonation of their voice revealed everything. My manager translates in a softer voice to me, but I very well understand the pressure cooker situation I had found myself in. I did managed to get out of the rut. The details in explanation on how I managed that would involved some technical engineering mambo-jumbo and I’m sure all of you wouldn’t want to read this crap.

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After presentation is my time to enjoy China before I depart tomorrow morning. Yes, I am in China now. The land of oppurtunities. I’m inside my hotel room, resting after that battle I had. My boss was certainly relaxed. I know that he had done this thousands of time (more than 30 years of experience). This is only my second client meeting. Nothing much to this writing today.

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Cheers guys.